Week 3 on bedrest

Went to the doc yesterday. I still have high blood pressure but no edema. We drew some more HELLP blood work to keep an eye on the preeclampsia. I'll be having an ultrasound next week to check on the placenta previa.

I was supposed to have my gestational diabetes test yesterday but I forgot to drink the orange syrup. I'm a real piece of work, my current job is to incubate this kid to the best of my ability & I forget to take a test for him. Yup I'm gonna be a great mom!

This Saturday starts the 3rd trimester. I'm excited & scared & maybe even a little depressed to get to this milestone. I'm excited because I am so close to finally holding this little boy in my arms. I'm scared because so much can still go wrong. I could go rapidly down hill & this baby may or may not make it if he was born tomorrow. And I'm a little depressed because I have spent this entire pregnancy in such fear. I haven't been able to enjoy it because I was always so afraid of losing this baby. I'm still worried now. I can, with all honesty, say that if something were to happen to this baby today...I would never recover. Never.