Countdown Day 13

Well my dr's office did not make me have more bloodwork. She said it was close enough. Thank goodness because I currently have track marks from all the blood draws. I think I'm going to start telling lab techs to aim for the same hole. I have a bad feeling that one day a dr is going to ask me how long have I been clean. I'm figuring they'll guess years because of my fat ass.

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Thirteen more days until my period shows. I can't wait to get started on the FET. I feel like I'm currently stuck in slow gear. I can't help but think I could be missing a magic moment by waiting a cycle. I know it's silly but I just want a kid and I'm just so damn tired of waiting. I can't help but look at the calendar and think I should have a 3 month old in my arms right now or I should be almost 8 weeks pregnant. I hate all the missed milestones and moments I never got a chance to have.