Out of Denial

I take back what I said yesterday. This hurts. Bad.

My nervous breakdown arrived when I was half way to the RE's office. By the time I got there I was a blubbering idiot. I snotted all over the sign in sheet, the lab & the doctors desk. Some office twit had the nerve to ask me if I was okay. I'm thinking this lady works in an infertility office I can't be the only depressed woman that has ever come through here.

I demanded a copy of my medical records while I was there. I got to see my ultrasound report from Monday. There was nothing there. No sac, no enlarged uterus, nada. So my medical diagnosis is chemical.

The only thing to do now is sit back & wait for my March cycle. I'm so tired of waiting & being unhappy. Those 10 weeks last year were the best. I had never been so happy, I want to be that lady again so bad.

BTW-My beta for today was 97.