Shocked

That's about the only word I can come up with right now.

For some odd reason I decided to take a hpt when I got home Friday. Well it was positive. Then that bitch hope came running full steam back into my life. I went for my beta on Saturday and here is where we stand:

beta 41
p4 28.9

Not stellar by any sense. But it's a positive & I'll take that for now. I had my second beta this morning. I can only hope that it doubles, would really prefer it to triple, but I'll just have to see. I'm trying not to get my hopes up.

Even if it does all I want it to do, there is no guarantee I'll get a baby out of the deal. I've been here before & it didn't end pretty. I'm just going with the fact that for right now I'm pregnant.