Complications

I find it amazing that I couldn't do getting pregnant right & now I can't do pregnant right.

Let's due a brief recap....1)Failed the gestational diabetes test. Have to have the 3 hour. Fuck, shit, piss.
2)On the phone 5 times with the on call doc in extreme pain...pre term labor? who knows....just head to labor & delivery asap. Several stressful hours later I have my diagnosis...kidney stones! I am given the option to be admitted to have IV fluids pushed along with pain meds & the promise to hopefully be out before xmas or pain meds, drink lots of water & come back to the hospital on xmas eve for a re-check. I of course chose option home. I regretted this decision about 45 minutes after we left the hospital. I cannot even begin to describe the pain.
3)Xmas eve re-check...stress test fine, little boy fine, blood pressure bad, protein in urine bad. Doc gleefully tells me if my labs come back abnormal I will be admitted until this kid is born. Luckily labs come back normal.
4)Failed 3 hour gestational diabetes test. Fuck,shit,piss.
5)Regular weekly check-up. Blood pressure bad, bad, bad. Now have to go to the office twice a week.

So in short I have gestational diabetes & preeclampsia. I'll be 29 weeks on Saturday. I am on strict bedrest. I have to keep this kid in at least another 3 weeks. I would prefer 7 or 8. I need to have very close monitoring to ensure I don't develop HELLP or eclampsia.

Man I feel like such a failure.