Feeling? yes Like crap? yes

I'm at that point where I can't believe I'm going to have to wait 2 months to start the next cycle. I still want to believe that it's not over, but I know it is.

My sweet, sweet husband asked me last night if I was sure it was over. He wanted me to take another test just to be sure. I didn't have the heart to argue. He looked really crushed when I told him it was negative. I really think he thought we'd be on our way to parenthood by now. Every time I think about how disappointed he is I get all teary. I'm can't help but feel that he deserves better. He deserves a wife that can give him a family. I have a really bad feeling that I won't be able to give him what he deserves. And that thought just breaks my heart.